Hello everyone! I hope you all are having a wonderful Tuesday; a Tuesday that’s better than mine! Haha, just kidding. Kinda. I mean nothing terrible happened or anything so I won’t be dramatic, it’s just been one of those days. So, this post is going to be a pretty present and transparent one.
I have had a lot on my mind recently: from finding a new source of income, to finding ways to better myself, to the time I dedicate to Fiercely Me, to simply figuring out what’s next. With that being said, as much as I love writing and sharing with you guys, it’s felt almost impossible lately. The thoughts start creeping in… What am I doing? This doesn’t matter to anyone. Maybe I’m wasting my time. The motivation starts to decrease, the doubts get louder… It’s been hard to be consistent and post what I feel may be of help to others when I feel like I can’t follow what I’m saying myself.
I know that’s the enemy though. When you’re headed in the right direction, he will start throwing his hardest punches at you to get you off track or to throw in the towel. When you start thinking you’re not good enough, you don’t have what it takes, etc. One of my favorites, Sarah Jakes Roberts, put it this way: “The area where you feel the most doubt and insecurity, that’s where your seed is.” You know you’re doing something right when all of those opposing thoughts come to the forefront of your mind. The key is to recognize the intent of those thoughts and where they come from.
As for myself, I look at everything I have to do, my surroundings, the world in general, and everything seems to be too much; too difficult and I get overwhelmed. Then once I get overwhelmed, I shut down. Shutting down for me is really shutting down. I don’t have the strength to do the things I know I should be doing. I don’t want to talk, read, pray, anything. But like I said, you have to recognize that that’s the enemy and fight. His intent is to keep you from where God wants you to be. He fights you to draw your attention elsewhere. He wants you to be overwhelmed, worry and give up.
As I finish writing this, I’m reminded of 1 Peter 5:8-9 – Be sober, be alert and cautious at all times. That enemy of yours, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, be firm in your faith.”
I almost didn’t even write this post today because I felt very little motivation and simply didn’t feel like it. Then when I decided to write it, I planned on making it short and sweet. But folks, we have an entire blog post and I’m actually feeling a little better. I say all of that to say: when you don’t feel like it (whatever it is for you), sometimes all you have to do is take a step. Don’t fall for the schemes of the enemy. Rise up. Fight. Resist.